if i had a heart

kind of dramatic video, but interesting, right?
plus, i cant stop listening to the song.
watch it here...

lunch.

Yesterday at lunch time I made some red chard and leeks. I added walnuts, salt, and cumin. it was amazing. Miles and I ate it with scoops of brown rice. yum. I never have ANY light in my kitchen, and it breaks my heart. I have a beautiful little studio and no natural light. This is the best photo I could get of my chard, after holding it, in pan, around my window for 10 minutes trying to find the most light.
Miles and I are going to do some modifications to my Polaroid 360 Land Camera in a couple minutes...I will keep you updated on that because its exciting!

Lastly, I've been obsessing over TV on the Radio's first E.P. lately. I was into it a few years back, but I dont think i've listened to it for a few years now. Its amazing, you should re-introduce it to your musical library. Young Liars is an amazing song.
And thats about it for now!

winter woes.

i hung up paper hearts and paper faces. some paper birds and one paper bear. i made freckles on my face and put a hat on alex. miles' photo looks really soft for some reason, its kind of blurred. i want to touch it.




this is me with out any neck. just a floating head, like in baron munchausen. i am a planet!




this is alex looking really warm.

i am not a fan of any of these photos, really. it was just a fun excersise to play with light and shadows in my kitchen. i havent felt exceptionally artistic or creative lately. i dont know what it is, ive been spending all my time reading books instead of being in the real world.
my friend tara and i are going to have a photo shoot in february. i have alot of good ideas and i think she will be an excellent model. she is kind of a cutie-bad ass.
i dont know why i take photos, i guess it is just fun for me.

when winter was summer.

this is alex. he is squinting in the warm sun. i know it isnt nice to post photos of your friends with their eyes closed, but it was such a nice day and it was so warm at the park and alex is handsome regardless of his eyes being in an open state or a closed sleepy state. i love you alex. catch some zzzzz's.

twenty three's

we are turning twenty three this year. karin was first.

p.s. expired polaorid film+ a sub par polaroid camera=shitty polaorids. oh well, i kindof like them.

what else is there?

have you guys seen this video?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WOt15JsLloU

woodlands.

i finally plugged in the scanner. it wasnt that difficult. ho-hum.

p.s. my handsome and talented boyfriend has a rad blog...check it out here!

good morning good night.

last night was pitbull puppies, existentialism, quail creek, thieves, oooh on the TLC tip, vodka tonics, peacocks, 2 a.m. vegan "steak" sandwiches and lonley warm walks. there is nothing left of me this morning. i watched my girl two and drank a coca cola. i am suprised im typing. i woke up and took my photo because it was so early and the light was nice on my bed. i dont know how im going to function at work this evening. fucking DESTROYED it last night.

santa cruz pt 1.

the three of us went on an epic journey, and too be honest, it had been too long since we had spent any quality time together. we took the one and enjoyed the warm day. we stopped at a beach and found a giant dead blue bird. he had a long yellow beak and huge flat feet. we climbed a steep cliff, found a newly deceased sea lion basking on the beach with a missing eye. i would like to believe she died at sea, of old age and came to the shore to spend her last moments asleep in the sun. we explored caves and played with flashlights. we crawled through the thick cave clay and saw spiders and breathed the musky cave air. we ate food from india and brazil. we made vegan pizzas and went to the farmers market. it was the best vacation. (and now i want to explore every cave in the world!)

photo 1 is the cliff we hiked down, photo two shows the remnants of the dock that stood in order load concrete. photo 3 is the giant sea lion. photo 4 is me, really haggard and sweating after tromping around cliffs and sand.




photo 5, 6, 7 are in the cave. it was so wonderfully dark, quiet and still. photo 8 is me after cave exploring. makeup everywhere, hair dreads, it was amazing.

these photos were of the beach with the dead sea bird. i have more neat feather shots and some gruesome bird goo, but who needs to see that?

flowersflowersflowersflowers

i need to make flower crowns and twig necklaces and warm gloves. then we need to go outside where there are many trees and i need to get new polaorid film for all the cameras in this house. then i need to take your photo. we can wear my fur hats!

lets play catch-up.

I have been working very steadily on a major project i hope to unveil tomorrow. i doubt it will be done tomorrow, but a girl can pretend. my blog hasnt been to exciting lately, and i apologize, but rest assure, i have many, many cool things coming soon! For now i leave you with this outtake from my winter hat1 kitchen shoot, and a new headline thing. i can never get those right, but if you look UP you will see the rough draft of a new banner. if any of you wanna come over and model for me, i need a few people for a new shoot i want to work on. let me know if you are interested!!

gazing lovingly.

i drew this two night ago. pretend miles and i were animals who dressed up for halloween. miles is a duck dressed as a dragon. i am a brontasaurus dressed as amelia earhart.

debaser.

oh color photobooths, flannel shirts, babydoll dresses and nirvana.oh debaser. i left you too early last saturday, but next saturday i will stay and remain yourrrrrrssssssssss!

ice cream you scream

Tonight I made Vegan Cookies and Cream Ice Cream. I have an ice cream machine that I dont use often enough. The ice cream is dreamy. I think i finally figured out how to make it keep a good consistency, but i never have anything to store it in. This is kind of a problem, but tupperware works for now!

streets.

Today I walked around on my busted ankle and took photos of things in the street. These were my favourites.

twothousandandnine.

Happy New Years!!
Last night I explored bayview and an old warehouse where a massive show was going on. I waited in a bathroom line for way to long, I met new people, I danced, I broke my polaroid camera (it happens...and i have about five!), I took cabs, ate my first New Years Vegan meal, and found places for Marina to pee all night. Ha. I hope you all had a safe and fun New Years, I hope 2009 will treat you better than 2008 did, cuz I know it was a rough year for alot of people.
I never make new year's resolutions, but a few days ago I taped a piece of paper on my fridge with a little list of things I want to see change in 09'. Most importanty on the list are following a Vegan lifestyle, calling my brother and sister once a week, and taking more photos, but with film instead of digital! Also, I hope to stretch more and impove my drawing and harmonica playing skills!


Lastly, lets try and make 2009 a fucking rad year. I want to get shit done, and I want to do more projects WITH people, so lets make this happen!
Here are photos from the last few days...x0x0

(that is a delicious tofu sandwich i made for lunch. it was so good. haha)